Adding God to the MS balance beam
Hi Friends!
Excuse my slight laziness this month as I repost an old blog. This is ironic as this blog is a little bit about not being lazy.
My life has changed a bit in the years since I first wrote this, but the sentiment remains the same.
Due to Holy Week, this blog has a spiritual tint to it. I hope though, that even my non-believing friends will enjoy it from the aspect of how it incorporates another one of the elements of living with multiple sclerosis.
And really, how can you not believe in a higher power? I mean, God is freaking awesome! The sun, the moon, the Earth, the oceans and on the eighth day he created the Rolling Stones! How can you not love the creator of all that!! Only someone that cool would be capable of creating Keith Richards and keeping him around past his over ten lives thus far.
But no matter what you believe dear readers, I wish you great health and many, many laughs always….
I think I messed up the Lent thing. As a Christian, I was excited about the approach of this time of year. We use this time to grow closer to God with prayer, almsgiving (does trying to make people laugh count as almsgiving?) and fasting.
My goal was to take advantage of this opportunity. I saved change to put into the little cardboard box that was our church’s mission project to support Catholic Relief Services. I even put in quarters. When it was time to turn the box in on Palm Sunday and it seemed a little light, I even took some change out of another jar where I had been saving for my Lions Club.
Speaking of my Lions Club, I also fed the crew of a local Habitat for Humanity project in our club’s name. I didn’t have time to get fellow Lion’s to help me but that was ok as it was supposed to be a small crew.
The numbers increased however and thus it was that my fatigued MS self was slapping together ham and cheese on a windy morning for hungry construction workers. And, unfortunately, as far as I could tell, not a one of them was single!
(Not that that had anything to do with why I was there of course, it was about almsgiving.)
When two fellow Lions asked me to help them clean the God given beach, I did put a stop to that. Really, how much almsgiving can you do???
For the prayer portion of Lent, I obtained many books about Jesus and set to grow in my relationship with Him. It worked; I have enjoyed a lot of what I read.
But here is where MS screwed me up. My brain takes much longer to process information. So, while I was reading all of these great spiritual works, I was taking up a ton of time in my already pretty crowded with exhaustion, day. That left no time for the things I should be doing for my general health.
Suffice to say, what I wound up unintentionally giving up for Lent, was working out with my Wii Fit. Officially, I gave up casual reading for Lent in favor of more involved spiritual material and was planning on curbing my sweet tooth. But before I realized it, I was fasting on getting exercise and I am not sure that counts.
With MS there is so much you should do and so little energy to do it in. With Lent, there was so much I wanted to do and only forty days to do it in.
(Ok, technically, you don’t have to stop the prayer, almsgiving, fasting routine just because Easter arrives, but having a time table sure helps to keep you focused.)
That is when I figured out where I went wrong. Focus is the key word.
There are always going to be more things I want to do and more things I have to do, and I will always have to walk this MS balance beam of energy supply. Some days I may do it well, other days not so much.
But if I put God first, maybe I won’t have to balance Him with other things. Not even with MS. Maybe Jesus IS the balance beam of energy. With Him first in my world, everything else will fall into place, even my Wii Fit, after it gets over being mad at me. Perhaps I will bring it an Easter basket….
Here’s the other thing I learned, as it says in scripture, “it’s never too late to start all over again.”
Wait, maybe that isn’t scripture, maybe that’s Steppenwolf. I will have to check my notes. I have also really been into 70’s music lately.
The point is, every day you just have to give life your best shot. Wait, shot is not the right word. Jesus is all about peace and love, not violence-no shooting…
Ok, let me try a third way. We are humans and as humans we are total screw ups. But screwing up isn’t always bad if we can learn from our mistakes and keep our focus on what is right and what is good for us.
And, no matter how hard you try, you can’t use Lent as an excuse for not exercising!
Thank you to Healthline for naming my blog as one of the 20 Best MS blogs for 2019! I’ve had the opportunity to work with many of these fellow bloggers and I must say, I’m humbled and honored to be among them. Check out the full list here Healthline top 20 MS Blogs of 2019
Happy whatever you are celebrating today!
So good to hear that you are round the twist as I am you have to be able to have fun even when you feel like shit .I mean not to good today
Thank you so much Stephen- I really appreciate that!